Indie Game Jam
I have made what feels like a major step in my life today. I just registered to go to an Indie Game Jam thing. Its where you get together with other people and work on games. I don’t know why but I am scared out of my mind. I almost didn’t do it, saying, “next year I’ll go, next year I’ll be more ready, I just don’t know what I am doing this year”. But then I remembered that I said the same thing last year, and the year before that I had just found out about it.
I think that we all fear doing new things. This is a new thing where I am going to have to face whether I know what I am doing or not. I know for a fact that this is what I fear. I fear finding out that I am full of shit. In the end, I fear success as much as I fear failure. Its crippling. I’ve never felt this before. Usually I have been safe in knowing what I was doing, but now I am treading unknown waters.
I am excited as much as I am afraid I think. I hope to find out that I know a lot more than I think I do. I hope it is a good experience. Maybe I can meet some people who will want to work with me after the Jam is over. Maybe I’ll just find out that I hate doing this and get my life in order. I don’t know, but it should be good either way.
My advice would be to always take the dive. If you think that you should do something, or if you are scared of doing something new, just do it. Don’t wait.